This song just made my morning go bleak, sad, desolate and…bereaved, bitter, blue*, cheerless, dejected, despairing, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, distressed, doleful, down, down in dumps, down in mouth, downcast, forlorn, gloomy, glum, grief-stricken, grieved, heartbroken, heartsick, heavyhearted, hurting, in doldrums, in grief, in the dumps, languishing, low, low-spirited, lugubrious, melancholy, morbid, morose, mournful, out of sorts, pensive, pessimistic, sick at heart, somber, sorrowful, sorry, troubled, weeping, wistful, woebegone.
There I just pasted all the synonyms of sadness. Why oh why does he have to make me listen to that fucking song?! Then tells me that all my questions are not applicable. Sigh. Stupid complication. Sigh. I need my girl friends. 😦 I haven’t really cried about this, well, not that I need to but it’s ritual hahaha.
But come to think of it, Aprille asked me if I did let go already, I said I wasn’t sure. How do I know again if I have? Kiss someone and not think of him while doing so? Hold someone and not feel the weirdness that he is not the one you’re holding on to? Sigh. Whatever.
Off to sleep again. Simbang gabi, day 5.