November 18

I thought I should get around typing this. Happy times I would not want to forget.

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33 days. 33 days was when the guy in the movie Sassy Girl gave her a rose in front of all people at the auditorium, or was that 100 days? I can’t remember what’s the 33 days for. Or was that in Windstruck?? Anyway, crap that I didn’t see him today but it doesn’t matter because I was already giddy just by looking at our pictures. At some point, it is still scary how someone can make you peacefully happy–by peaceful I mean without worrying and be just like this. This also means I gave someone the power to hurt me and make me cry; but why worry about that now when I am this deliriously happy? In fairness, this giddiness had already subsided somehow. The other day when we met up after being apart during his birthday and the first month, I was almost skipping all the way home. And I know with that, I know I had really fallen in love. There goes the line, sealed with a kiss. Sigh. I am too easy. Hrhr.

First Day

I had dozens of words in my mind to write about him, us earlier, but then I spaced out. Smiling.

So before I forget and for tracking purposes, LOL, when they make that presentation on your wedding (and yes, I can imagine a future with him), I shall write about what happened during our first month:

October 15, he had two big exams which literally got him almost lifeless and beyond haggard. Note: number history, our birthdays are both on the 15th of the month and the first time ever we were introduced (which he didn’t remember me also; oh, he was introduced to us by Ckloy then during Feb Fair this year) was also the 15th. So anyway, I asked him to go grocery shopping with me then told him I’d accompany him to dinner. I think that was just our 4th or 5th time to go out together alone. I know, too fast.

Sidetrack. Another history, I don’t want to forget these stuff:

• 1st date, we never actually called them dates, just “labas tayo” thingies, I was the one who asked him (well, usually was the case from then on). It was a boring cold night then and we had some drinks at IC’s at around 10pm on a Saturday, September 12. I had Tequilla Sunrise, as usual, tried to drink 2 but ended up having him finish my 2nd glass. Song of the night then was I Gotta Feeling. Highlight was when I puked big time in front of PNB on the way home, claiming I was not used at walking home after drinking haha. First time and should be the last time to happen here in LB.
• 2nd date: Dairymoor–It was newly opened and we had crepes. and our first photo together haha.
• 3rd date: Dairymoor again–After dinner at Jollibee, we went there for drinks and crepe for me and pasta for me, and was just talking all night.
• 4th date: Not really much of a date, I just surprised him at Physci with KFC krushers since he was rushing some exercise to be submitted then we just walked around freedom park while drinking the shake.
• 5th date: Dinner at Max’s–the night I felt that I fell.

Beer Bubbles

So I guess that means we had less than a week to “date” out before we became a couple. We’ve been friends since May I guess which as the months gone by that time, we have been talking nonstop, online and through text. There would also be the scenario of plurk friends pushing you two together.  For our “first day,” we were together the whole afternoon walking around campus. Watching clouds and plainly talking under the heat of the sun. We had our first bus ride before his sembreak and had our first fight that night too. Haha. And this is sounding like a baby book full of firsts.

To sum it up, my memory can’t remember all details that’s why there is this thing called a blog:

• Family knows about him already. I told Mom I had a boyfriend through YM, was called a cradle-snatcher, said she thought he was a girl, then introduced him through Photosharing. Technology.
• I think I have gained a few pounds since we started going out. We’ve been to every fastfood chain around the campus.
• I got gummy bears as pasalubong one time.
• He surprised me at 10:30 in the evening when he came back from sembreak, when all day I was complaining that I missed him and thought I wouldn’t see him until the following week.
• I haven’t been out of phone credits since…July, I think? Since we started texting.
• As he may occasionally slept on me without saying good night, he never missed a good morning message even if that meant using his Mom’s phone to do so.

You're My Rainbow Skies

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Present day typing now. And so our first month was good, still high, excited and so into love. <3

Load Credits

For several months I was so used at not having load everyday. When I was working in Alabang it was enough that I had some to text home that I’m on my way since I usually go home past 9pm and arrive around past 11pm here. I was amused as how my little brothers seem to just use up their load credits as if it was water–always needed. Xylon and I usually tell them that during our high school years load was really precious since there were not unlimited texting promos. LOL.

Anyway, well yeah, of course the main reason why I don’t care if I have load or not is because I don’t have that somebody to text with every minute of everyday unlike during the boyfriend times. Since I haven’t had a job for the past months people rarely expect me to respond to text messages haha.

I think I’m in a detox mode. Detoxification from all the complications that a heart-related matters bring about. It’s been two weeks I think that I haven’t been crushing or liking or loving anyone. LOL. Pretty short I know. For me between those days, after hearing that he has a girlfriend already and now relatively long enough that I have not been giddy over someone. I’m not the type who bounce from one guy to the next. I just bounce between crushes. So high schooly and immature I know but it being giddy at random parts of the day because of someone makes me happy. Haha. Tch. Immaturity attack. LOL.

Being the eldest with siblings way younger than me makes me so adaptable to people younger than me to people older I guess. This I believe is one of the reasons why my maturity level is still like them as well. Wahhaha. I don’t deny that I’m still immature; but I won’t say that I’m not mature at some aspects as well. We were raised to be so dependent and spoiled I think. Even thought we don’t have much, I feel that we are spoiled. Not brats though. We are spoiled in a way for me which means that we are so secure when at home. It’s like even if things are being cut short, money problems and all, there would always be time when we could splurge and get rewarded.

I’m rambling. Haha. This wasn’t what I was suppose to blog about but when words form in my mind, they just won’t stop. Thus, the ramblings and off topic statements. What I was just trying to point out is that my cell phone has been alive for the past days nonstop.

I think what I’m feeling right now again is security. I was mentioning about load because for the last two weeks as well, even if I lost him, I got close to another friend. And we’re at the state where we don’t care about what we tell each other; from gross stuff, serious, funny and at the moment stuff. Plain nothings that makes me want to have load all the time, because for as long as I can remember I begin to disconnect once again from the Internet. Something I have been trying sooo hard to do these past few months. Having an online-based love story would naturally have you want to go online all the time. But now, there’s no point. I find those stuff I do online less interesting. I’d rather watch some TV series and text all day again. It’s comforting this way. It’s just nice. It’s so freakin’ nice when you can have a purely platonic relationship with a guy knowing that he’s safe ground. Someone without any expectations, someone who’s not hoping for something else because he wants someone else. Just purely light, bubbly and stupid conversations each time.

I love chick flicks; simple and just feel good movies. This friendship that we got here is just like that–a feel good movie–no dramas involve. For that I thank him.

Family time

Went to see to finally see Transformers yesterday with the whole gang. It was sooo effin’ awesome. Just the right amount of drama, a great dose of comedy and gotta-love-it action play. Really wow. Great words too! I just love it. Plus, there’s popcorn. I love popcorn. LOL.

This would be among the times when you know that there’s so much more you want and yet you feel peacefully happy When money can’t buy happiness but can buy you a time to be spent together. It’s just nice. Though yes there cannot not be any blunders everytime we go out… Jiro barfed in his clothes thus getting him new shirt and shorts upon arrival. LOLs. Shoulda do that sometime ahahaha. And Dwayne getting lost when we were just beside each other. LOLs again.

We bought Xylon’s new Dual 2 Quad Core pc also. Weeeee Sims time for me!!!! Hahaha. Now the other room is packed with two PCs and two printers. LOL. We need to go wireless soon. I hope. And during those times that everything is just fine, I just smile even if I was panicking about my job hunting days ago.

It has been a crazy week at home. With Jiro’s suspension/punishment being the envy of all at schoo and by Dwayne and Dwayne faking LBM to skip school. Those two really are something. LOLs.

I bought a purple leggings. Haha. But I forgot to drop by Swatch to get battery for the watch I had been wearing all day with the time of 11:30 all day also. Grr. I got another pimple. Been texting with Starfish all day also. Finally got the hang of browsing the net..err..plurk with my PSP at Megamall. Ohhh and ate at Racks again after so long. Sooo.. all is good.

Sinusitis

LOL. This was soo days ago. Was too lazy to type it thus I kept writing on the paper for the succeeding entries. Grr..

July 5, 2009

Gwarsh. My face is hurting! Having sinus headaches since I woke up! My gums are hurting too. Kuya Barry said something about them hurting with sinusitis but never got to see his reply to my plurk. Garr.. Cheeks aching. Head aching.

I finished reading Cecilia Ahern’s Thank you for the memories. So nice, made me teary at the end. Will write a review tomorrow or the next day or the next. lol. I’m thinking of random me stuff. Hmmm.. should post the note from Facebook here too.

I’m waiting for Sinutab to drive me sleepy as I am not. Just thinking of other SPs to do before my birthday. I realized that maybe I should just go with it. That I will find a job for me in God’s time. After he selected it. It’s now 10days before I turn 24. OMG. Almost a quarter of my life has passed. What I done with it? Have I been truly happy? I rserve those answers for next week

I’m becoming sleepy now. I remember what Cliff said yesterday in the midst of me bring stupid and emotional: “hindi ka makakahanap ng matinog, kung hindi ka din matino maghanap.” Maybe that’s why I magnet super young guys or meet the people which are so wrong for me….

ZZzzzzz…

And as I am typing this now. I realized how random my thoughts were then. Hahaha. Must be really sleepy then. :p

The smaller pictures in life

Week 8/52: The smaller pictures
Originally uploaded by vwynx

It’s already July! *panic* Will be turning 24 in 2 weeks. *ohno0oes*

Has the year been good so far? I would say no, but then… there are things, incidents and people who came this year that made it better than crappy.

Sometimes all we see is the big picture. But if we look closely there’s so much more going on. Not all smiley faces are happy. And not all poker-faces are sad.

Here’s to capturing the best moments in our lives.
As Hitch said, “Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
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That was my post for today. Gasps and semi-hyperventilate. IT IS JULY. Oh no. Sigh. Shit. OMG. OMFG. Waaahhhh… I have been loitering around for already 4 freaking months!!! Sigh.

Oh crap. I forgot to continue blogging. I’m so sleepy now. Will be staying at the apartment for the next two days. Weee.. I really miss city life. Oh God.

2009 has been fun, sad, shitty, happy. It always has a twist. For every downturn, I know there’s a bright light that comes my way. For every mistake that I make, I think I still get the most of the moments. For every people who I hurt.. Sigh. Well that’s just negative. But there’s also people who smiles, laugh. I lost some chunks of experience for being outta work. But I gained more friends. Haha. How’s that for an excuse. Oh well, the life’s experience card has not limit. So, as always charge everything to experience. LOL.

I’m really sleepy now. So… and I’ve been having insomnia lately that my throat is freaking hurting always due to lack of sleep…as Mom said.

I smiled today because:

1. I was still able to pay my credit card bill which I was soooo avoiding to open for the past week. But..sigh. haha.

2. Loved my SP this week. Thanks to Kupo for helping with the shots..weee.. shot our dippy collabs for tomorrow also.

3. Plurk

4. What else did I do today? Haha. I dunno. I wanna sleep now. Hmmm.

5. Long emails….. :):) Or rather, brief emails that substitutes for lack of YM time. LOL.

6. I had ice coffee and cookies for dinner. But now I’m hungry. It’s 1:30am

7. I finally was able to pack my stuff. But I still have to pack my PSP, some books, and chargers.. Hmmm… No lappy for two days.. *whining* Huhuhuuh..

Now I sleep.

0629 smiles

Twas a so-so day But still happy.. hihi… Something different from my routine was that I went out to withdraw money since I owe bro something ahahah. Also shoot some cloud formations for Carmi for a possible dippy collab on Thursday. Wow. What a life do I have?!

1. Woke up goodie with a good morning text from starfish saying he fell asleep last night when we were texting. Nice. Hmm.. they’re planning to get married by next year.. Sigh. Wow for them.. He’s just so good at these stuff..Life and family stuff..

2. Had fun checking dippy collab samples with Carmi. I still haven’t decided what to do. I want a gummy bear pic.. I want a kupo pic.. etc. haha. I still haven’t thought of my self-portrait for this week either. Hmm.. Been browsing also on what pin-up style to do for FF.

3. LOLing with Karrie about girl issues on Flickr. LOLs. Lubog kung lubog. Foolish hearts indeed.

4. Mine and his in and out mode. LOLs. Mahirap tlga pagmadaming girls. Double LOLs.

5. Weee I so likey the pic I submitted to Flickr today Love how it turned out. Spontaneous snapping of the Uno Stacko..supposedly the slinky but I can’t find it. Hihii..Love the colors.

6. Plurk chaos is always fun. Hahahaa.

7. Saw an ad for a writer for a Photography magazine <3 I pray, I pray. Thy will be done.

8. Real coffee. LOL. I soooo love love the Mocha cappuccino Inay brought over yesterday. <3

0621 smiles

It’s daddy’s day today weeee! happy dad’s day! Though he said it was more like Jiro’s day today here because of all the food which he enjoyed: we baked lasagna and had cookies and cream cake… sogbuuu!! Really yumyumyumy..

Thus, it was a one fine day really. Family time.

1. Oven time. Weee hahaha. I dunno baking always give me highs even if it’s food I’m cooking not cookies or any pastries. I wanna coook!!! And I love to eat. But weird thing is I never taste what I’m cooking during the process of cooking it. I dunno why. I just have my brothers taste it if it’s okay for them hehee.

2. I sooo like the quote for my Flickr upload today. “Someday I will find my Prince Charming but Daddy will always be my King.” So sweet..as sweet as the cake we had. Can’t really get enough of it haha. Thanks to Cliff for finding this

3. Emomot is back!! Wooo! Hahahaha. Double fun in plurk whenever that dude’s around. Silly things that keep Carmi and I entertained.

4. I love the Homily earlier. Haha. Touching story–father and son. Makes you realize how much love you have as a family. We might not have so much but I know love is something that we don’t have less.

Three Months

June 5, 2009

[Disclaimer: Long and deep thoughts of my life for 2009. Drama mode. LOL]

There are times when you just suddenly sit and think. Literally sit down, stare into space and drown in your thoughts. You think of what happened during the day that made you smile and that made you feel crappy. Then those thoughts doesn’t stop, it overflows so you get a pen and write it down. Like me. Harr.

It’s exactly been three months since I resigned from what I used to think as a “claim to fame” job (hypnotic dreaming pala). I never expected it to be this long. Around March time, Dad was already telling me to apply. Nah. TOO EARLY. I haven’t had a summer outing and I’m still feeling burn out.

Came April I had my Sagada adventure. I went climbing, hiking, spelunking and kiliging (huwat?!).  Greatest adventure of my life by far. That was early April. When we returned home I said, “next week na lang” [mag-aapply]… then “next week na..” as I was currently addicted to facebook games and really enjoying my break. As April was ending, I got bored. Boredom hit home. So I surf through Jobstreet and applied here and there.

I got 6 exams/interviews naman out of the 10 I clicked then. Not bad I thought. I was really looking for THE job. Besides, Mom kept telling me to wait and don’t jump at the first sign on a job. The interviews and exams kept me “busy” but came May, nothing still.

Mom then asked me if I wanted to come to Palawan with her since my cousin is coming too (officemates sila nung tito ko). I half-heartedly said no, declaring that I’ll have a job na by then. Tch. The week before their trip, I had an exam at a Telecom company for a marketing position, which I wasn’t 100% into (which reminds me I haven’t called back for the results). I was feeling bummed at that point. Well, I wanna see the Davids concert din kaya ako badtrip. Harhar.

So being the irresponsible and impractical kid that I am, I booked a flight to Palawan and joined them. Thank God for credit cards at this down down moments. I know I’ll be having a Bex-case scenario [shoppaholic series] if I don’t get a job pa.

And now here I am. It’s June. Panic attacks. Thinking that my “would be housemate” kupo would be moving in or starting Manila life next week and wala pa sya housemate. sucky for me. Have faith. Trust in Him. Thy will be done. Is all I can think of next. Sigh.

I woke up crappy today. PMS-ing I guess. And just maybe stressing out on the job hunt, thinking of my current heart complication, wanting things…etc. But the day ended well, I think.. Except for the fact that I have tons of things in my mind and this blog is getting so long.

My Flickr friends made me smile today, made me laugh, made me annoyed and kilig. My plurkmates kept me entertained the whole day. Carmi and Aps were online to make kulit. And he missed me, he said. Another big smile for me then.

See not all bad..Carmi said I’m on F5 mode today. But still… sigh….
Pa-hug na lang.