Period.

Gahhhd. Hurting. Damn these cramps. I’m delayed for 10 days. Whoa. I’m more stressed than I think I am. Huhuhuhu.. Oh God. Job. Please. Now.

Pokerfaced emoticon

I usually have good self-control. Well, except when we’re talking about love and the like. Tch. I think I badly need to learn control now. Sigh. I always get stupid and do crazy actions when I get so high. Waahh.. I know there’s no cure for stupidity on love but…. I just love love. LOL.

So much for that. I read a forwarded text earlier.. something about when you step back it’s not that you’re accepting defeat but… LOLs I suddenly forgot what’s next to that. Hmmm.. I guess stepping back doesn’t mean you’re backing out or you’re scared but it’s allowing yourself to slow down, take one step at a time, realize that you’re feeling to fast, going to fast and then next thing you know, you’re falling too fast. It’s the ability to see the big picture as they say. Then maybe you will see that it’s not what it’s cracked up to be. It’s not really what you thought it to be.

I get giddy to fast. I get happy to fast. That’s one of the things at times I get annoyed at. Coz it seems like, since I get happy easily, I get hurt more easy too. Sigh. I guess that’s where expectations spring from. You become too happy that you expect things to go smoothly and most often than not, it doesn’t.

The sunset can’t always be yours. You just get a moment to enjoy it. Because the next day is really another day. This sunset or sunrise could just be captured for this day. The view tomorrow is different. The people around would be different. The clouds may not be there today and tomorrow it can be. The sky can paint you a lousy picture today but would give you gladness tomorrow.

Sigh. I don’t even know what I’m getting at now. All I know is that I need not be too happy. Poker face. I need to learn to do a poker face. Wahhh.. Literally, I have a hard time doing that since I’ve even been noted as a big smiley emoticon. So how can I do the poker emoticon?? LOLs.

But I know I have to. There are moments you don’t have the right to react. No right to show you’re angry or irritated because you’re not even on the hierarchy to give a damn comment.

Sigh. I need to sleep now. I don’t know where this would be going. LOL. Have to pray harder for this one job that I really want. Oh so help my God.