Math is like love

“Math is like love – a simple idea but it can get complicated.”

Math and Love. I need tape not stitches this time. Just tape and it’ll be fine.

This would just be the occasional (I hope) times when I miss “us.” Maybe not exactly him but Us before. And this would be the occasional time when I my day is just simply being directly crappy and I need him to hot wire it, without him knowing, to keep me grounded.

I would/am miss/missing:

• “I love you”
• Sweet and comfortable silence.
• Holding hands.
• A big bear hug that envelopes me away from any negativity.
• Smiley mornings.

Someone told me before that I love having my boyfriend him around because he’s like a security blanket. Maybe so or more likely, that’s a yes. Maybe it’s because of the way he’s built. A walking pillow, bigger than me, that when he hugs, I could just forget the world and the crappiness everywhere. I know I’ll get that feeling again…I hope. There are times even the most independent women just needs someone to tell them everything’s gonna be alright.

On another note, I had fun at Mom’s Christmas party earlier with Pochay. Parlor games with some twists plus prizes of course. All these involved us having to stand up, ran around, hyper mode basically. It was just really nice. Oh, I also had the mic with me more than several times hihih. Parties ain’t complete without videoke. Exchange gifts too!

Also, there was this one game wherein we had to say some information about us for the others to memorize to get a prize. One of the question there was how many boyfriends did you have? LOL. Dad came also towards the end btw, since Mom was having high blood again. So anyway, my parents only knew one haha. So my Tito was bullying me to say the number which is more than one hahaha. I said, three. And there goes the catcalls. I didn’t mention that all of them were now exes. LOL.

Okay, I guess this is enough him and some of me for today. I should really sleep now.

Not A Morning Person

I woke up today an hour late and wasn’t able to attend Simbang Gabi. Crap. Shit. Sigh. I hate mornings like this; I did not even hear my alarm, first time in a long time. And there it goes, I woke up with his text saying his orgmates were mad at him for what he did to me. Oh well.

For the past several months, I was a happy-morning-person–because he was. He’s the type who wakes up early and not be grumpy about it. I was the opposite, but waking up with his cheery good mornings day after day made me a psuedo-morning person, well, until the good times at least. There I found the post in Facebook that I was looking for: Life Line ~ Timeline. It was I think one of the first mornings that I realized I was too giddy and smiley when I wake up, which resulted to this photo a month after:

Morning Secrets

I miss those times so much, when we were simply happy as friends. Sigh.I guess this is my “moping” mechanism, I have not cried about what happened, not that I need to but it’s one of those questions my girl friends were asking me after taking in the scenario.

I shall end this morning post because I could just go on and on about what was before. Hmm. At least, blogging is healthier than drowning myself in alcohol because of this. Hrhrhr.

Sinusitis

LOL. This was soo days ago. Was too lazy to type it thus I kept writing on the paper for the succeeding entries. Grr..

July 5, 2009

Gwarsh. My face is hurting! Having sinus headaches since I woke up! My gums are hurting too. Kuya Barry said something about them hurting with sinusitis but never got to see his reply to my plurk. Garr.. Cheeks aching. Head aching.

I finished reading Cecilia Ahern’s Thank you for the memories. So nice, made me teary at the end. Will write a review tomorrow or the next day or the next. lol. I’m thinking of random me stuff. Hmmm.. should post the note from Facebook here too.

I’m waiting for Sinutab to drive me sleepy as I am not. Just thinking of other SPs to do before my birthday. I realized that maybe I should just go with it. That I will find a job for me in God’s time. After he selected it. It’s now 10days before I turn 24. OMG. Almost a quarter of my life has passed. What I done with it? Have I been truly happy? I rserve those answers for next week

I’m becoming sleepy now. I remember what Cliff said yesterday in the midst of me bring stupid and emotional: “hindi ka makakahanap ng matinog, kung hindi ka din matino maghanap.” Maybe that’s why I magnet super young guys or meet the people which are so wrong for me….

ZZzzzzz…

And as I am typing this now. I realized how random my thoughts were then. Hahaha. Must be really sleepy then. :p

The smaller pictures in life

Week 8/52: The smaller pictures
Originally uploaded by vwynx

It’s already July! *panic* Will be turning 24 in 2 weeks. *ohno0oes*

Has the year been good so far? I would say no, but then… there are things, incidents and people who came this year that made it better than crappy.

Sometimes all we see is the big picture. But if we look closely there’s so much more going on. Not all smiley faces are happy. And not all poker-faces are sad.

Here’s to capturing the best moments in our lives.
As Hitch said, “Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
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That was my post for today. Gasps and semi-hyperventilate. IT IS JULY. Oh no. Sigh. Shit. OMG. OMFG. Waaahhhh… I have been loitering around for already 4 freaking months!!! Sigh.

Oh crap. I forgot to continue blogging. I’m so sleepy now. Will be staying at the apartment for the next two days. Weee.. I really miss city life. Oh God.

2009 has been fun, sad, shitty, happy. It always has a twist. For every downturn, I know there’s a bright light that comes my way. For every mistake that I make, I think I still get the most of the moments. For every people who I hurt.. Sigh. Well that’s just negative. But there’s also people who smiles, laugh. I lost some chunks of experience for being outta work. But I gained more friends. Haha. How’s that for an excuse. Oh well, the life’s experience card has not limit. So, as always charge everything to experience. LOL.

I’m really sleepy now. So… and I’ve been having insomnia lately that my throat is freaking hurting always due to lack of sleep…as Mom said.

I smiled today because:

1. I was still able to pay my credit card bill which I was soooo avoiding to open for the past week. But..sigh. haha.

2. Loved my SP this week. Thanks to Kupo for helping with the shots..weee.. shot our dippy collabs for tomorrow also.

3. Plurk

4. What else did I do today? Haha. I dunno. I wanna sleep now. Hmmm.

5. Long emails….. :):) Or rather, brief emails that substitutes for lack of YM time. LOL.

6. I had ice coffee and cookies for dinner. But now I’m hungry. It’s 1:30am

7. I finally was able to pack my stuff. But I still have to pack my PSP, some books, and chargers.. Hmmm… No lappy for two days.. *whining* Huhuhuuh..

Now I sleep.

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

Gah. I still can’t figure out how to go about this blog. LOL. Where’s to delete??! wahaha. stupid.

0629 smiles

Twas a so-so day But still happy.. hihi… Something different from my routine was that I went out to withdraw money since I owe bro something ahahah. Also shoot some cloud formations for Carmi for a possible dippy collab on Thursday. Wow. What a life do I have?!

1. Woke up goodie with a good morning text from starfish saying he fell asleep last night when we were texting. Nice. Hmm.. they’re planning to get married by next year.. Sigh. Wow for them.. He’s just so good at these stuff..Life and family stuff..

2. Had fun checking dippy collab samples with Carmi. I still haven’t decided what to do. I want a gummy bear pic.. I want a kupo pic.. etc. haha. I still haven’t thought of my self-portrait for this week either. Hmm.. Been browsing also on what pin-up style to do for FF.

3. LOLing with Karrie about girl issues on Flickr. LOLs. Lubog kung lubog. Foolish hearts indeed.

4. Mine and his in and out mode. LOLs. Mahirap tlga pagmadaming girls. Double LOLs.

5. Weee I so likey the pic I submitted to Flickr today Love how it turned out. Spontaneous snapping of the Uno Stacko..supposedly the slinky but I can’t find it. Hihii..Love the colors.

6. Plurk chaos is always fun. Hahahaa.

7. Saw an ad for a writer for a Photography magazine <3 I pray, I pray. Thy will be done.

8. Real coffee. LOL. I soooo love love the Mocha cappuccino Inay brought over yesterday. <3

0624 smiles

I’m generally happy today despite my period cramps. The pains for being a girl each month. Garr. But still

1. Cliff’s voice over vid aka john lloyd. HAHAHA. Funny and cute.

2. The weather is so nice when you’re indoors weeee.

3. Flickr Lovestory article> here

4. Coffee

5. I’m halfway with the book I’m reading. It’s really nice. Loving the words C. Ahern is using. Plain wordy but I likey it.

6. I can’t remember why I’m really happy or what made my day. But really twas a happy and rainy day.. weeee!

What made me smile

June 18, 2009

I have decided to try hard to blog everyday or every other day. Even if it means I write first on paper since I don’t feel like typing write now. Hiihii. Will also try to do a daily what made me smile list to remind me that despite the crappiness life entails, I’m still happy.

1. I finished and submitted two articles for a possible job. One about me and kup and the other about some friends’ rants and my own. Having done those someone I felt I did something productive. Lol at my productivity level.

2. Was talking to Mine the whole day. LOL at our new form of endearment. Sweet. Makes me remember the segulls from finding Nemo who were always screaming “mineminemineminemineminee.” For now, this is my make-believe love story. LOL. Something I can’t actually be too smiley about….

3. Finally talked to “Hayden” with more than just a few lines. Hmmm.. still wondering if most of it was Ckloy though..but he seems innocent enough when I asked him.  LOL. Flirting ever moments. Harr.

4. At friendship level now with “Buzz” since he has a new girl target. LOL.

5. Online friends are growing. Makes me really happy that I’m meeting different wonderful people in Flickr. Karrie makes me smile with her meanness haha. Girls really becomes gaga over love talks.

Today wasn’t that bad. Oh it’s holiday tomorrow for them. A normal day for me. LOL.

Gah. I just realize I’ve been using LOL suddenly so frequently these past days. ;p LOL. Haha.

Interestingness

June 16, 2009

Flickr’s Explore: 500 most awesome content in Flickr for the day. They say its based on the clickthroughs, the views, the comments and the faves. But how it really gets selected, one can only speculate.

How can we get to be on one’s interestingness list? With the world having these billions of people how can you stand out from all the other photos and have that someone list you as explored? And once explored, what can you do to be selected as a favorite? To be always viewed and commented. The world is so advanced now that it is not rare to hear the news that someone found their bride or groom online. LOL. There are tons of networking sites, dating sites and even “find a millionaire boyfriend” site!

But then again, being far away from each other all you can bet on is your interestingness to day on top of your game.

LOL. I guess I have been really addicted to Flickr these past few months. And the people in it.

Three Months

June 5, 2009

[Disclaimer: Long and deep thoughts of my life for 2009. Drama mode. LOL]

There are times when you just suddenly sit and think. Literally sit down, stare into space and drown in your thoughts. You think of what happened during the day that made you smile and that made you feel crappy. Then those thoughts doesn’t stop, it overflows so you get a pen and write it down. Like me. Harr.

It’s exactly been three months since I resigned from what I used to think as a “claim to fame” job (hypnotic dreaming pala). I never expected it to be this long. Around March time, Dad was already telling me to apply. Nah. TOO EARLY. I haven’t had a summer outing and I’m still feeling burn out.

Came April I had my Sagada adventure. I went climbing, hiking, spelunking and kiliging (huwat?!).  Greatest adventure of my life by far. That was early April. When we returned home I said, “next week na lang” [mag-aapply]… then “next week na..” as I was currently addicted to facebook games and really enjoying my break. As April was ending, I got bored. Boredom hit home. So I surf through Jobstreet and applied here and there.

I got 6 exams/interviews naman out of the 10 I clicked then. Not bad I thought. I was really looking for THE job. Besides, Mom kept telling me to wait and don’t jump at the first sign on a job. The interviews and exams kept me “busy” but came May, nothing still.

Mom then asked me if I wanted to come to Palawan with her since my cousin is coming too (officemates sila nung tito ko). I half-heartedly said no, declaring that I’ll have a job na by then. Tch. The week before their trip, I had an exam at a Telecom company for a marketing position, which I wasn’t 100% into (which reminds me I haven’t called back for the results). I was feeling bummed at that point. Well, I wanna see the Davids concert din kaya ako badtrip. Harhar.

So being the irresponsible and impractical kid that I am, I booked a flight to Palawan and joined them. Thank God for credit cards at this down down moments. I know I’ll be having a Bex-case scenario [shoppaholic series] if I don’t get a job pa.

And now here I am. It’s June. Panic attacks. Thinking that my “would be housemate” kupo would be moving in or starting Manila life next week and wala pa sya housemate. sucky for me. Have faith. Trust in Him. Thy will be done. Is all I can think of next. Sigh.

I woke up crappy today. PMS-ing I guess. And just maybe stressing out on the job hunt, thinking of my current heart complication, wanting things…etc. But the day ended well, I think.. Except for the fact that I have tons of things in my mind and this blog is getting so long.

My Flickr friends made me smile today, made me laugh, made me annoyed and kilig. My plurkmates kept me entertained the whole day. Carmi and Aps were online to make kulit. And he missed me, he said. Another big smile for me then.

See not all bad..Carmi said I’m on F5 mode today. But still… sigh….
Pa-hug na lang.