Coffee

When you’re told to blog about anything, what would be the first thing that comes to your mind?

Mine right now would be coffee. May it be the literal meaning or with some hidden meaning. I want coffee. Not hot and not cold. Not a frapuccino but a regular super sweet one. I love the smell of coffee. It’s bitter and yet sweet like life. Why do we want it? Well, for the main reason it keeps us awake and alert. Eyes dilated and every sense at it’s attention. But coffee only gives us a boost for only three hours they say. Better take an apple. Hmm. But there’s something addicting to that bitter-sweet taste of it. At some point I think again of how most of us live our lives. We drink it even if it’s hot and burns us. We jump into the unkown knowing it will hurt us in the end, but still our curiosity gets the best of us and still we jump. As the saying goes, take a risk because if you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.

And this is how my mind is working right now. Coffee. I want coffee. Just because of a coffee urge I begin to associate it with life. We want it hot or cold, bitter and sweet depending on our moods. But at the end of the day there would just always be one perfect cup for us. Just one. One that can make any cup taste so bland and boring.

For my quick fix, Starbucks would always be on the top of my list.Is it anywhere near you? Check out where they are: store locator

I’m wanting a Javachip Frapuccino now.

The smaller pictures in life

Week 8/52: The smaller pictures
Originally uploaded by vwynx

It’s already July! *panic* Will be turning 24 in 2 weeks. *ohno0oes*

Has the year been good so far? I would say no, but then… there are things, incidents and people who came this year that made it better than crappy.

Sometimes all we see is the big picture. But if we look closely there’s so much more going on. Not all smiley faces are happy. And not all poker-faces are sad.

Here’s to capturing the best moments in our lives.
As Hitch said, “Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
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That was my post for today. Gasps and semi-hyperventilate. IT IS JULY. Oh no. Sigh. Shit. OMG. OMFG. Waaahhhh… I have been loitering around for already 4 freaking months!!! Sigh.

Oh crap. I forgot to continue blogging. I’m so sleepy now. Will be staying at the apartment for the next two days. Weee.. I really miss city life. Oh God.

2009 has been fun, sad, shitty, happy. It always has a twist. For every downturn, I know there’s a bright light that comes my way. For every mistake that I make, I think I still get the most of the moments. For every people who I hurt.. Sigh. Well that’s just negative. But there’s also people who smiles, laugh. I lost some chunks of experience for being outta work. But I gained more friends. Haha. How’s that for an excuse. Oh well, the life’s experience card has not limit. So, as always charge everything to experience. LOL.

I’m really sleepy now. So… and I’ve been having insomnia lately that my throat is freaking hurting always due to lack of sleep…as Mom said.

I smiled today because:

1. I was still able to pay my credit card bill which I was soooo avoiding to open for the past week. But..sigh. haha.

2. Loved my SP this week. Thanks to Kupo for helping with the shots..weee.. shot our dippy collabs for tomorrow also.

3. Plurk

4. What else did I do today? Haha. I dunno. I wanna sleep now. Hmmm.

5. Long emails….. :):) Or rather, brief emails that substitutes for lack of YM time. LOL.

6. I had ice coffee and cookies for dinner. But now I’m hungry. It’s 1:30am

7. I finally was able to pack my stuff. But I still have to pack my PSP, some books, and chargers.. Hmmm… No lappy for two days.. *whining* Huhuhuuh..

Now I sleep.

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Twas a so-so day But still happy.. hihi… Something different from my routine was that I went out to withdraw money since I owe bro something ahahah. Also shoot some cloud formations for Carmi for a possible dippy collab on Thursday. Wow. What a life do I have?!

1. Woke up goodie with a good morning text from starfish saying he fell asleep last night when we were texting. Nice. Hmm.. they’re planning to get married by next year.. Sigh. Wow for them.. He’s just so good at these stuff..Life and family stuff..

2. Had fun checking dippy collab samples with Carmi. I still haven’t decided what to do. I want a gummy bear pic.. I want a kupo pic.. etc. haha. I still haven’t thought of my self-portrait for this week either. Hmm.. Been browsing also on what pin-up style to do for FF.

3. LOLing with Karrie about girl issues on Flickr. LOLs. Lubog kung lubog. Foolish hearts indeed.

4. Mine and his in and out mode. LOLs. Mahirap tlga pagmadaming girls. Double LOLs.

5. Weee I so likey the pic I submitted to Flickr today Love how it turned out. Spontaneous snapping of the Uno Stacko..supposedly the slinky but I can’t find it. Hihii..Love the colors.

6. Plurk chaos is always fun. Hahahaa.

7. Saw an ad for a writer for a Photography magazine <3 I pray, I pray. Thy will be done.

8. Real coffee. LOL. I soooo love love the Mocha cappuccino Inay brought over yesterday. <3

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I’m generally happy today despite my period cramps. The pains for being a girl each month. Garr. But still

1. Cliff’s voice over vid aka john lloyd. HAHAHA. Funny and cute.

2. The weather is so nice when you’re indoors weeee.

3. Flickr Lovestory article> here

4. Coffee

5. I’m halfway with the book I’m reading. It’s really nice. Loving the words C. Ahern is using. Plain wordy but I likey it.

6. I can’t remember why I’m really happy or what made my day. But really twas a happy and rainy day.. weeee!

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This is a weird day with the not-friends-with ex suddenly poked himself to the picture. But swerved my way and refused to come face to face. LOL.

So what’s good about today? Seriously running out of whys.

1. Girl talk. LOLs. Typical rant talk with the baks, Carmi and Aps about the stupid scenario. I love love my friends

2. I love our lunch ahahaha. Some fish chucks with garlic gravy. Dunno what it’s called but it’s super yumyum! And I was still able to scavenge the remaining half of the cake.

3. A far away friend remembered how I sneezed. Just amazed me since we haven’t since each other for really ages and lol that was still high school. Haha.

Ok enough forcing myself to think of things that made me happy. I’m crappy. I just remembered I haven’t had my period yet that’s why most probably the reason why I’m always cranky. Hmm around a week delayed now. Garr. Seems I’m too stressed than I think I am. Sigh.

I’m still having cravings. I still want coffee…the real thing. lol. I shall have coffee tomorrow. Hah.

Pokerfaced emoticon

I usually have good self-control. Well, except when we’re talking about love and the like. Tch. I think I badly need to learn control now. Sigh. I always get stupid and do crazy actions when I get so high. Waahh.. I know there’s no cure for stupidity on love but…. I just love love. LOL.

So much for that. I read a forwarded text earlier.. something about when you step back it’s not that you’re accepting defeat but… LOLs I suddenly forgot what’s next to that. Hmmm.. I guess stepping back doesn’t mean you’re backing out or you’re scared but it’s allowing yourself to slow down, take one step at a time, realize that you’re feeling to fast, going to fast and then next thing you know, you’re falling too fast. It’s the ability to see the big picture as they say. Then maybe you will see that it’s not what it’s cracked up to be. It’s not really what you thought it to be.

I get giddy to fast. I get happy to fast. That’s one of the things at times I get annoyed at. Coz it seems like, since I get happy easily, I get hurt more easy too. Sigh. I guess that’s where expectations spring from. You become too happy that you expect things to go smoothly and most often than not, it doesn’t.

The sunset can’t always be yours. You just get a moment to enjoy it. Because the next day is really another day. This sunset or sunrise could just be captured for this day. The view tomorrow is different. The people around would be different. The clouds may not be there today and tomorrow it can be. The sky can paint you a lousy picture today but would give you gladness tomorrow.

Sigh. I don’t even know what I’m getting at now. All I know is that I need not be too happy. Poker face. I need to learn to do a poker face. Wahhh.. Literally, I have a hard time doing that since I’ve even been noted as a big smiley emoticon. So how can I do the poker emoticon?? LOLs.

But I know I have to. There are moments you don’t have the right to react. No right to show you’re angry or irritated because you’re not even on the hierarchy to give a damn comment.

Sigh. I need to sleep now. I don’t know where this would be going. LOL. Have to pray harder for this one job that I really want. Oh so help my God.

Crappiness

I really should be typing this. It’s getting so long. Okay, I’m already doing so. lol.

I’m irritated for some reason today. But I know it’s about him. I hate that I’m liking him more than I should. Then again, maybe this is just like what it was with the other. Infatuation. The hype of the situation. Oh well. I know he spells trouble to start with since I usually end up being attracted to one. Sigh. But here I am, jumped onto the abyss of simple nothings. Hmmm. But maybe also it’s an eye opener for meof what kind of guy I really want. Someone witty, someone creative, and someone mature. Maybe I will meet someone like him I will meet someone like him in the future. Someone who wouldn’t have any other girl aside from me. LOL. Cheesyness!! Eeeks. WTF.

Whatever.

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For smile report. Blah. Gwarsh. Crappy today. I am so early to go offline. (Hours after writing that, I went back online. LOL.) I wanted to talk to him more but the more I do so, the more I get frustrated. Torn. LOL.

1. Tony and his 200-balloon turned chicken video. Plain funny.

2. Carmi for just being around. Sigh. I hope I could do the same thing for her and move in now to our apartment. Oh God. The Job. Please.

3. Buzz and his seemingly never ending “simpleng tanong lang.” Hahaha. Yesterday was about buddy icons and the mean of TFS. And now it’s how to type ñ! LOL! Just tihnkingabout how he was trying to type it but only resulted in JLOJ… letters is cracking me up. Hahaha.

4. Coffee. For being online when he said he wouldn’t. But ironically resulted to my irritation. But still. He’s there and that made me smile. Damn PMS.

5. Karrie and out endless chitchats about senseless things regarding boys and the rest of the worls. LOL.

6. Oh! My Lolo dropped by today. Haven’t seen him for months. He was asking me to go and spend the weekend with them at Tagaytay. Hmm. Maybe I should have gone, since I didn’t have anything to do today. Then maybe I could have prevented nonesense argument with coffee. Har.

[Update a few hours after]: He made me laugh with his insane plans. LOL.Wonder if any of those will come true when he goes home.

Too much

June 18, 2009

There are these moments when I just want to stop writing but my thoughts doesn’t stop from overflowing. I like him. Hmm. Like is not that a powerful word isn’t it? LOL.  I like how he thinks, I like how sweet he is. But that’s the catch. He’s too sweet and sweetness ran off from his body to every other girl LOLs. A guy who seems like would be always a bachelor. Ala George Clooney or Matthew McConaughey?? LOL. Why am I always faced with a guy like this? Har. Oh well, not my priority now. Life and getting a life is my priority. Hays. I want to be busy… so that he’ll miss me. LOL.

Words are only words. This is just the inerneeet.

And sometimes, I think too much.

sunset at sunrise

June 15, 2009

(AM: blogged at Starbucks last Monday before  a job interview)

For once I was early. Monday traffic even cooperated. I started our the day early by looking at a lovely sunset photo. How ironic but I felt like the day just ended well and it was just around 4:30am.

I sit now waiting for time. Letting my tongue cool down after sipping my hot cappuccino with 5 packets of sugar I believe. Hah. I look across the street. Normal car flow. I remembered this long stretch of road in Shaw Blvd. and how I was also blogging about it years ago. Thank goodness I haven’t seen any old office mates. I’d feel weird. Haha.

The sun is even shinning brightly. That’s different since every time I go to an interview/exam there’s a heavy downpour even before I can reach the building. Hmmm.. A sign? Maybe today would be different. Maybe this week would be different. I hope so.

Nobody can you the sun or the moon in reality. But one can capture the perfect setting for you if you can’t be together to share it.

(PM: blogged after the interview in the bus)

The sun was there. So much for my supposedly happy blog today. Gah. When will the time come when I would be deliriously happy after a job interview/exam?? Gahhhr. It wasn’t a company that I expected. It’s like a call center also and I’d rather not go back to that callin’ world. It would be fine I guess if it would just be writing in a call center world. But please no calls.

Depression hits when you feel that even your parents get “inip” na with your just bumming around the house. Gawwd. How I wish I could have my independence again. Oh well. Ramblings in my mind while waiting for the bus to move.