At the end of a happy day

Today, I had an orientation for a possible job which I declined and hopefully would not regret that; I met with Cliff, who just came home from Doha; had my favorite Starbucks combi: Javachip and Belgian Waffle; did a little bit of shopping with Carmi and Ezra; Was talking all day to Emomot; it was cold and breezy…in short it was a one fine day for me. For real. It felt nice to sleep on the bus even though I was dead tired and I was irritated still at my clogged ears. Tch.

And then I logged in to YM. And then I realized I missed something. Some friendship with someone I had been in constant communication with for the past year and then it went poof. Sigh. And I told him I missed him, for surely I do. But not surprisingly, he did not believe me. I don’t blame him.

It’s hard when friendship becomes weirded out because you thought the relationship could go on another level. And when it didn’t, things doesn’t go back to normal. Sigh. Oh well… Life…

But really.. I miss you.

first hour of happyness

And so the first hour of my day has passed. Certainly good. I am still smiling. I am so easy to please that’s why I am still smiling. The simplest efforts can make my day. Thus, today? Everything goes on. No noos.. Just yes to be good.

-Apy’s early birthday surprise: Al’s cakes Better than Sex so yummy.. touching letter also. Happyness.

-Kambal’s before midnight text…my friends are getting mushy hihii… Happyness also.

-Mine called weeeee… cute little voice. Was talking to him til the clock struck 12. Happyness.

-Made it to Flickr’s Explore again! weeee. Wish granted. Thank you Flickr! Happyness.

-Friends waiting with me for the time. Carmi and Ez for the webbie greeting. Happyness

-Plurk greetings from Oishi Thirdy, Ana, Madel, Kupo, Jenna and Alviar when the clock hits midnight again. Happyness.

-YM greeting from Cliff and Alvin, midnight again. Happyness.

-Text from Karrie and Nanay, midnight again. Happyness.

The day is just starting and there are so many things to smile about already. I hope this last the whole day. I pray for a great new beginning. Thank you for another year.

Online drama

Late post again…

July 8, 2009

Adik sa’yo…awit sa akin…

And so the song keeps playing on my mind. Funny series. And now my mind becomes blank. I have an interview again tomorrow. And today I also saw a job posting from IRRI. My heart skipped. It’s IRRI even if it’s here. If I get a job offer there I wouldn’t be hesitating to accept it. Sigh. With great hopes of course that Carmi and Tito and Tita would understand. But no use worrying about that now hahaha as I haven’t even applied. LOL

….Mine said he missed me. There goes that line to sure to soften me. Garr.. We weren’t in speaking terms since the other day. LOLs. Committed the biggest blunder guys would do. LOL. Well, maybe not the biggest but synonymous to that at least, since it didn’t happen face to face AND hindi naman kami. LOL. But still, a big ego blow for me to be called by an endearment used for another. Fine ang babaw. But..Hmf. LOLz. Then Arvin points out again na hindi nga naman kami at chat lang yon and nagkamali lang thus “lol” was just his answer when I asked for his opinion. Fine. But I was upset. Hmmmm.

But then again, all’s been said and done. No use crying over spilled milk and all those cliché. And this is just online drama Sigh…. all I gotta do is to disconnect and poof real life continues. They may just even be fictional characters in my life. Sad to say. There are some things that can’t be real. Even if you wish them to be…….

Some people might really just remain a yellow bulb in your messenger list which you only get to talk to when you connect to the big tangles of the world-wide web.

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It’s nice to be away from home for a change. Really. It’s a great break! Haha. Though I had spent a great deal being so near the shopping areas. LOL I even bought a fish eye jelly lens that doesn’t seem to work. Grr..

1. Starbucks with Carmi and Karrie
2. Ice Age 3
3. New interview
4. More pictures
5. Jelly lens with fake fish eye effect. lols.
6. A good break from my “break”
7. Offline mode. Sometimes the net I think is stressing me out. LOL. Funny how it does that. But I had slept soooo soundly during my offline mode. No puyats!!
8. Sleeping early. Really.
9. The WOW boarding house/apartment that Carmi has there. Wow. Really wow. Everything’s in there. A real home away from home!! Really OMG. LOL.
10. Cookfest and Alfredo white sauce with Ging
11. Aircon weeee hahahaha
12. M&Ms
13. Peace and quiet..no boys, no nagging.
14. Realizations amidst the confusions on where I want to be.. Where nga ba? I know it’s here but… Sigh. At some point I have accepted that maybe things really don’t go the way we want them to be.
15. A break from mooning over him. Or have I really? Hmm.. Who is HIM?
16. Sun after the interview. For a change. A sign maybe? Hmm..
17. Cecilia Ahern’s words.

I was happy during our stay there. Kup and I had fun playing house haha.

Friends for Sale

Gahh. I was suppose to update my blog earlier but was caught in the buying friends as pets game in Facebook. LOL.

If only we can buy people. Bwahahaha. Well, technically and literally some can. Hmmm. Then maybe there’d be less drama. LOL. I dunno how that statements get to be connected. Ugh. Internet is so full of drama. But as Carmi said, it’s just the net. And yes, once we decided to stop the drama, we just have to disconnect. Sigh. People do really have a way of complicating things that aren’t supposed to be complicated. Arguments that are just supposed to be petty quarrels and not a full pledge pride war. Sigh.

Drama. Drama. Drama. I hate it but I know life is boring without it. Hahaha. Whatevs…..

I’m off to sleep. Done buying friends for the day. LOL. And I know my pets have been bought from me by the time I get up. Haha.

The smaller pictures in life

Week 8/52: The smaller pictures
Originally uploaded by vwynx

It’s already July! *panic* Will be turning 24 in 2 weeks. *ohno0oes*

Has the year been good so far? I would say no, but then… there are things, incidents and people who came this year that made it better than crappy.

Sometimes all we see is the big picture. But if we look closely there’s so much more going on. Not all smiley faces are happy. And not all poker-faces are sad.

Here’s to capturing the best moments in our lives.
As Hitch said, “Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moments that take your breath away.”
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That was my post for today. Gasps and semi-hyperventilate. IT IS JULY. Oh no. Sigh. Shit. OMG. OMFG. Waaahhhh… I have been loitering around for already 4 freaking months!!! Sigh.

Oh crap. I forgot to continue blogging. I’m so sleepy now. Will be staying at the apartment for the next two days. Weee.. I really miss city life. Oh God.

2009 has been fun, sad, shitty, happy. It always has a twist. For every downturn, I know there’s a bright light that comes my way. For every mistake that I make, I think I still get the most of the moments. For every people who I hurt.. Sigh. Well that’s just negative. But there’s also people who smiles, laugh. I lost some chunks of experience for being outta work. But I gained more friends. Haha. How’s that for an excuse. Oh well, the life’s experience card has not limit. So, as always charge everything to experience. LOL.

I’m really sleepy now. So… and I’ve been having insomnia lately that my throat is freaking hurting always due to lack of sleep…as Mom said.

I smiled today because:

1. I was still able to pay my credit card bill which I was soooo avoiding to open for the past week. But..sigh. haha.

2. Loved my SP this week. Thanks to Kupo for helping with the shots..weee.. shot our dippy collabs for tomorrow also.

3. Plurk

4. What else did I do today? Haha. I dunno. I wanna sleep now. Hmmm.

5. Long emails….. :):) Or rather, brief emails that substitutes for lack of YM time. LOL.

6. I had ice coffee and cookies for dinner. But now I’m hungry. It’s 1:30am

7. I finally was able to pack my stuff. But I still have to pack my PSP, some books, and chargers.. Hmmm… No lappy for two days.. *whining* Huhuhuuh..

Now I sleep.

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Twas a so-so day But still happy.. hihi… Something different from my routine was that I went out to withdraw money since I owe bro something ahahah. Also shoot some cloud formations for Carmi for a possible dippy collab on Thursday. Wow. What a life do I have?!

1. Woke up goodie with a good morning text from starfish saying he fell asleep last night when we were texting. Nice. Hmm.. they’re planning to get married by next year.. Sigh. Wow for them.. He’s just so good at these stuff..Life and family stuff..

2. Had fun checking dippy collab samples with Carmi. I still haven’t decided what to do. I want a gummy bear pic.. I want a kupo pic.. etc. haha. I still haven’t thought of my self-portrait for this week either. Hmm.. Been browsing also on what pin-up style to do for FF.

3. LOLing with Karrie about girl issues on Flickr. LOLs. Lubog kung lubog. Foolish hearts indeed.

4. Mine and his in and out mode. LOLs. Mahirap tlga pagmadaming girls. Double LOLs.

5. Weee I so likey the pic I submitted to Flickr today Love how it turned out. Spontaneous snapping of the Uno Stacko..supposedly the slinky but I can’t find it. Hihii..Love the colors.

6. Plurk chaos is always fun. Hahahaa.

7. Saw an ad for a writer for a Photography magazine <3 I pray, I pray. Thy will be done.

8. Real coffee. LOL. I soooo love love the Mocha cappuccino Inay brought over yesterday. <3

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Ahihi. Wasn’t able to list down yesterday’s smiley points Hmmm… I can’t remember….

1. Went to another interview yesterday..seems well..hopes well.. The interviewer was nice anyhow. They will be done.

2. Xylon and I went home together after that and had KFC on the bus. weeee. Major smiley point yesterday, Famous bowl and mini bucket of fries. <3 lalalalaoveee

3. Rhino is just too cute! And his pic made it to Explore today weee…

4. UUbbberrr long phone call to Karrie last night.

5. Hmm.. today.. Carmi and Ez went here to play with Puppies weee.. pretty shots too!

6. LOLing at funny Flickr shots and comments with Karrie. Really LMAO. Laughing with tears of joy now. hahaha. She is mean. LOL.

7. And I dunno what else. But it wasn’t really that crappy today..it just came on later hahahaa. LOLZ. Whatevs.

Big, big girl. Big, big world

Wrote this out of the blue supposedly for the company I was praying for. But Nada. Carmi told me the night I wrote this when my mind was purely blank and I got nothing to write about: write about me! And so I did. Though Ging said it is also so me.

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A big house, own car, up to date gadgets, a complete family, a solid group of friends, and the love of her life. Having all these means a secure, satisfying and happy life, more or less.

But for the first time in her 22 years of existence, she has to leave home, be in a city full of chaos, ride public transportation and live life alone.

How scared can she get? She gets scared big time. Anxiety always seeps in everyday; hyperacidity kicks in and depression also settles. Until finally the first day of school arrives.

A new school, with new professors, new classmates: a whole new world. One way or another she’ll get excited. So she rides the train for the first time. There’s the jeepney and the bus rides with friends, with hopes they don’t get lost.

She smiles. She survived today. She exhales deeply and tells herself to worry about tomorrow later. For now, there should be a good night’s sleep.

What she didn’t know yet was that she would eventually like this: the up of her adrenaline every time she gets scared. She would love the new surroundings and the liberating feeling of independence, all these.

She would soon get lost. But she will find her way back. If not, there’s always the taxi to take her back. This city life would give her a new perspective in life.

She will be shocked that sex is any ordinary topic that gets talked about over lunch between strangers. She will still be overwhelmed with too much people and traffic. But she will learn to pick up the mess in her apartment and clean the bathroom. She can learn to cook some food, or if not, there’s always the microwave to the rescue.

These would just be some new things a big girl can do in a big city. She would now be living real life one step at a time. And as planned after she finishes her degree, she’ll happily hop back to home sweet home.

Or maybe, just maybe, she would choose a 180^o of what she had back home. She’ll continue living at her small apartment, enjoy the hassles and thrills of public transportation, have a family away from home, have new friends, still have the love of her life with her and..Live a big life with real experiences.

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This is a weird day with the not-friends-with ex suddenly poked himself to the picture. But swerved my way and refused to come face to face. LOL.

So what’s good about today? Seriously running out of whys.

1. Girl talk. LOLs. Typical rant talk with the baks, Carmi and Aps about the stupid scenario. I love love my friends

2. I love our lunch ahahaha. Some fish chucks with garlic gravy. Dunno what it’s called but it’s super yumyum! And I was still able to scavenge the remaining half of the cake.

3. A far away friend remembered how I sneezed. Just amazed me since we haven’t since each other for really ages and lol that was still high school. Haha.

Ok enough forcing myself to think of things that made me happy. I’m crappy. I just remembered I haven’t had my period yet that’s why most probably the reason why I’m always cranky. Hmm around a week delayed now. Garr. Seems I’m too stressed than I think I am. Sigh.

I’m still having cravings. I still want coffee…the real thing. lol. I shall have coffee tomorrow. Hah.