first hour of happyness

And so the first hour of my day has passed. Certainly good. I am still smiling. I am so easy to please that’s why I am still smiling. The simplest efforts can make my day. Thus, today? Everything goes on. No noos.. Just yes to be good.

-Apy’s early birthday surprise: Al’s cakes Better than Sex so yummy.. touching letter also. Happyness.

-Kambal’s before midnight text…my friends are getting mushy hihii… Happyness also.

-Mine called weeeee… cute little voice. Was talking to him til the clock struck 12. Happyness.

-Made it to Flickr’s Explore again! weeee. Wish granted. Thank you Flickr! Happyness.

-Friends waiting with me for the time. Carmi and Ez for the webbie greeting. Happyness

-Plurk greetings from Oishi Thirdy, Ana, Madel, Kupo, Jenna and Alviar when the clock hits midnight again. Happyness.

-YM greeting from Cliff and Alvin, midnight again. Happyness.

-Text from Karrie and Nanay, midnight again. Happyness.

The day is just starting and there are so many things to smile about already. I hope this last the whole day. I pray for a great new beginning. Thank you for another year.

akward or annoyed

I didn’t get the job. Tch. Sad. Oh well I guess not for me then. Sigh.

I’m thinking now if I am guilty of hurting someone again. But then I get annoyed. I don’t think so. I will try not to disappear, that is if I don’t get too annoyed. sigh. Sorry. But tch.

There are things you hope for, there are things you’d patiently wait for and save for so that you can have it in the end. And there are also people you long for, and people you really wait for, either to come or comeback.

But as there are these people, there are also those you seemingly wait for. I never thought I’d get tired of waiting because I am really a patient person, stupid at times when it comes to this stuff. But I did. Ging told me I woke up. That big edge to signal or push you and tell you that it’s really worth waiting for disappeared  I guess.

I need attention. I want attention. Immature and KSP. LOL. And maybe that was the trigger factor. Someone gave it to me. Someone else even if that someone doesn’t mean anything more but an online buddy. But he did care enough to make me smile and entertain my plain thoughts.

And so here we are again. Just like last year. They say, things that happened once may not happen again but things that happened twice will surely happen the third time. So I guess suffice to say this is it.  Just like last year, where we are again. A choice between being akward or being annoyed. And unconsciously, I chose the latter.

As they say, people don’t really leave, their roles just changed.

Hmm.. next goal. Keep the heart chained for the meantime.

da return of da stupid comeback

LOLs. Fine at more than half of it, it’s not funny. It was purely irritation. But sigh, I should have blogged this earlier so that I can tell what really happened, not like now that I’m looking all silly and smiley.

But anyway scenario was batchamte was texting me all afternoon asking where I was. Duh out of the blue, so typically no replies from me. Then he called. And said he wanna meet up, or rather someone want to see me. Then next thing I knew I was talking to him. OMFG. I got annoyed beyond comprehension upon hearing him laugh. LOL dude I’m not laughing. I don’t want anything to do with him anymore. It was part of the past wherein one would have no trouble deciding to burn and bury.

And so I told them that. Well simpler terms he’d understand. LOL. And the response that I got was that yes he was also totally over me and he just want to make chitchat. WTF. For what??? We are not friends. That’s it. Bottom line. Punch line. Could never be friends. But still they insist and I got another message this time from him asking me what the heck is my problem, it is so over three years now and all he wants to do is talk. WTF again. “kung over ka na bakit ayaw mo magpakita? what’s the problem?!” WTFGHSFDHG!!! And how in the world did it suddenly get to be my problem??

And so that wasn’t the end of it. I kept texting our common friend that I had enough of it and that he, the friend, I will surely see soon but not the stupid. Oh yeah I can call you whatever fuckin name I want. Weeee LOLs. Anyway, next up was I heard the friend calling out my name outside since they already said they’re here. WTF. Harr. Good thing Dad was home today to shoo them away. Told them I was asleep when all of know otherwise.

Turned off my phone after the last message. LOL at these people. Pushing someone like us to be “close” again. The problem with having a small town with most of your high school classmates living in it is that, it is indeed a small town and even if people who can likely bump into each other doesn’t do so, there would still be forces in letting you cross paths again even if you clearly and obviously screamed you don’t want to.

A waste of time, a waste of energy from extreme irritation and annoyance. But as someone said, do not let the ex affect you.