Unavoidable reasons

I lost him because of the most honest reason that he is younger. Younger, which would mean at some point less mature than me, more dramatic and more complicated. Thus, my mind got twisty and realized that it would never work out, that is even without trying. I hate those guys who just makes you like them and then disappears after you do. At times, I feel that I am like that. I enjoy too much of someone’s company that things happen. Love complicates friendship and when the love parts gets screwed up, frienship becomes forgotten.

I get teary after watching Grey’s Anatomy again, well, not surprising though. I teared up for this reason though it was far from what the episode was saying.  But still, it was about friends. I’m getting close to someone again for the reason that I enjoy talking to him. It makes me happy. No other reason aside from that; no linking it to a possible love or what. Hence, I get scared. Scared that things might happen again even if we have a different scenario. I know it’s crazy to even worry about it now when there’s no single strand of complication going on. But as my usual worry self, I think about what might be.

I hate losing friends because of weird feelings, awkward moments, and because of fights relating to these. =(