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Three Months

June 18, 2009 vwynx Leave a comment Go to comments

June 5, 2009

[Disclaimer: Long and deep thoughts of my life for 2009. Drama mode. LOL]

There are times when you just suddenly sit and think. Literally sit down, stare into space and drown in your thoughts. You think of what happened during the day that made you smile and that made you feel crappy. Then those thoughts doesn’t stop, it overflows so you get a pen and write it down. Like me. Harr.

It’s exactly been three months since I resigned from what I used to think as a “claim to fame” job (hypnotic dreaming pala). I never expected it to be this long. Around March time, Dad was already telling me to apply. Nah. TOO EARLY. I haven’t had a summer outing and I’m still feeling burn out.

Came April I had my Sagada adventure. I went climbing, hiking, spelunking and kiliging (huwat?!). Greatest adventure of my life by far. That was early April. When we returned home I said, “next week na lang” [mag-aapply]… then “next week na..” as I was currently addicted to facebook games and really enjoying my break. As April was ending, I got bored. Boredom hit home. So I surf through Jobstreet and applied here and there.

I got 6 exams/interviews naman out of the 10 I clicked then. Not bad I thought. I was really looking for THE job. Besides, Mom kept telling me to wait and don’t jump at the first sign on a job. The interviews and exams kept me “busy” but came May, nothing still.

Mom then asked me if I wanted to come to Palawan with her since my cousin is coming too (officemates sila nung tito ko). I half-heartedly said no, declaring that I’ll have a job na by then. Tch. The week before their trip, I had an exam at a Telecom company for a marketing position, which I wasn’t 100% into (which reminds me I haven’t called back for the results). I was feeling bummed at that point. Well, I wanna see the Davids concert din kaya ako badtrip. Harhar.

So being the irresponsible and impractical kid that I am, I booked a flight to Palawan and joined them. Thank God for credit cards at this down down moments. I know I’ll be having a Bex-case scenario [shoppaholic series] if I don’t get a job pa.

And now here I am. It’s June. Panic attacks. Thinking that my “would be housemate” kupo would be moving in or starting Manila life next week and wala pa sya housemate. sucky for me. Have faith. Trust in Him. Thy will be done. Is all I can think of next. Sigh.

I woke up crappy today. PMS-ing I guess. And just maybe stressing out on the job hunt, thinking of my current heart complication, wanting things…etc. But the day ended well, I think.. Except for the fact that I have tons of things in my mind and this blog is getting so long.

My Flickr friends made me smile today, made me laugh, made me annoyed and kilig. My plurkmates kept me entertained the whole day. Carmi and Aps were online to make kulit. And he missed me, he said. Another big smile for me then.