Rhino’s sleep shirt
Originally uploaded by vwynx
Weeeeeeee!!!!
My first Flickr Explore Front Page!!!!
And when I thought this day is purely crappiness, I get this. Made my night!! ^________^
Love love love Rhino.. weeee <3<3<3
A huge thanks to my Flickr friends 
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Gah. I still can’t figure out how to go about this blog. LOL. Where’s to delete??! wahaha. stupid.
Someone who was making me so giddy earlier turned out to be effin’ young. LOL. Why in the world do I magnet kids??? ROFL. Yes kid. Why oh why?? Ahahaha.. he’s just like my little bwoder. Noooo… wahhaha. So LOL.
Twas a so-so day But still happy.. hihi… Something different from my routine was that I went out to withdraw money since I owe bro something ahahah. Also shoot some cloud formations for Carmi for a possible dippy collab on Thursday. Wow. What a life do I have?! 
1. Woke up goodie with a good morning text from starfish saying he fell asleep last night when we were texting. Nice. Hmm.. they’re planning to get married by next year.. Sigh. Wow for them.. He’s just so good at these stuff..Life and family stuff..
2. Had fun checking dippy collab samples with Carmi. I still haven’t decided what to do. I want a gummy bear pic.. I want a kupo pic.. etc. haha. I still haven’t thought of my self-portrait for this week either. Hmm.. Been browsing also on what pin-up style to do for FF.
3. LOLing with Karrie about girl issues on Flickr. LOLs. Lubog kung lubog. Foolish hearts indeed.
4. Mine and his in and out mode. LOLs. Mahirap tlga pagmadaming girls. Double LOLs.
5. Weee I so likey the pic I submitted to Flickr today Love how it turned out. Spontaneous snapping of the Uno Stacko..supposedly the slinky but I can’t find it. Hihii..Love the colors.
6. Plurk chaos is always fun. Hahahaa.
7. Saw an ad for a writer for a Photography magazine <3 I pray, I pray. Thy will be done.
8. Real coffee. LOL. I soooo love love the Mocha cappuccino Inay brought over yesterday. <3
There are indeed 
in everyday life. But I smiled when Mom said that we should keep a gratitude diary. Weee I have been doing that. Something she learned from Oprah LOL. This will pass as one
1. Grocery. I just love going around the supermarket pushing the cart as slowly as possible. No hurries. I always take my take when doing the groceries. Went with Dad this weekend and bought Chips Ahoy Chewy and two party packs of Sponge Crunch. Yum. I also love the smell of Rob, I dunno. It smells so homey, like a reminder that you’re in elbi.
2. Oishi’s Sponge crunch. Just yummy.
3. Puppies. Been playing with them all day yesterday
4. TV. LOL I missed watching TV. I should do that often now. Lessen net time.. another LOL.. if I can.
5. New shoes! I have some new flats courtesy of an Aunt wippeee.. actually, it doesn’t really fit but it’s so cute I cannot let it pass. Good thing we have those shoe thingies na pampasikip
6. I found another old small shirt that fits me again. Double yahooooo!! I dunno why I’m losing weight hmmm.. though I’m just eating less. But still.. oh well, weepeeeee! hahahaha
7. Talked to Karrie again. Chika minute before bedtime.
8. I suddenly like Flickrmail. *kinilig* LOL.
Oh shit. I read your blog. Okay we did the same thing today. I dunno if it’s irritating me or hurting me. Then again what do you care right? Since all I ever did to you was disappear. So it seems. Tch.
Sigh. I’m sad now that I read that. I hurt you again I know. Sorry won’t do us any good. I told you last week, I think, that you’d always be my honeybunch. But now I guess that cannot be even if you borrow one from three. LOL. Seriously, well it looks like you had also ended our friendship.
Sigh. That’s the main reason why we wouldn’t work out–too much drama. We fight over the simplest things everytime. Regularly. I cannot have the same relationship I had with an ex.
Sigh. Yes, I’m sighing again. We had a great friendship. But why in the world does it looks like this is all my fault??! Okay fine, we have our own blogs where we can rant about all the freakin’ people in the world and nobody can care. Freedom of expression. Sooo LOL. Sarcasm there.
Now I’m annoyed. I was teary when I was reading your blog. But now…Tch. Why is it always me? Did you forget that it was YOU who said NO? That you don’t want any commitment because you’re not yet ready and maybe thing that happened last year will happen again?! Didn’t you? Well, obviously, it did. Again. Commitment or no commitment.
Someone told me before that she also believes that when there’s love, commitment should not be an issue. But now she thinks otherwise, brought also about by a long distance relationship. It’s so bull. I mean you tell someone you love them and you already know she wants to be with you on the first place, but still?? Soo what’s the big deal?!
I don’t love for the sake of loving. I don’t say those three words for the heck of it. Thank goodness I didn’t say it just to say it back. I was sooo in like with you. But maybe love was a reason why I let go. I dunno. Tch. Fine, maybe it’s my fault for demanding too much. but with how things are going, all I had wanted was security.
My golly. Sigh. Grr. Tsch.
I had searched all over for balloons on your birthday. I had looked stupid and silly for blowing them in the middle of a drinking session with friends. Just to show you after that I had celebrated it with you. Doesn’t that count as an effort? Please don’t say it is just me. That I didn’t try. Because OMFG I did. I did.
Effort would be all that I had waited for from you. Big time effort. I was in the city for several times wanting to see you. You can’t go because you have work..I know. But how about after that? You were scared of what they might say. You were scared if they find out. You didn’t dare jumo and take a risk. So now, don’t freakin’ tell the me that I’m someone who always disappear like a bubble.
Sigh. As I said, even an effin fairy tale which had completely gone wrong has an ending. AND there’s two sides in every story.
I dreamed of you. I remembered you. Then again when I woke up, I asked myself, what did I do? Or what did I not do? Things have changed and I’m not pointing fingers on who’s to blame. Maybe indeed it’s the age difference. Maybe I had wanted so much more that you cannot give. Emotionally and situationally. Maybe I should have waited longer. Maybe I should have been more patient. I know that was my last chance. Was it right to let it go? I’ll never know that for sure.
During the times when I was waiting for you to make up your mind if you want in or not, I was hella scared. My friend told me that maybe the reason I was scared is because there might really be something there. That maybe there’s something worthwhile if we become “together”. But then I dunno. I just woke up one morning after my sickness disappeared, so were the emotions. Maybe that’s the wrong part of it, I wanted more and yet I didn’t appreciate what we had.
You said you love me. And I didn’t said it back. I like you big time. But then there are so many BUTS in this psuedo-relationship of ours. So many hindrances: people or situations, which we weren’t able to overcome. I have always been a fighter when it comes to love. But why didn’t I fight for this? I dunno why. Maybe because you keep saying that our situation has gone around. You want in before then I said No, I want in now so you said No. So yeah I guess you’re right, this is just like a movie. And movies end. Sadly.
I’m sad. I’m sad not because I’m regretting what happened though maybe yes since it could have at least ended nicely. I’m sad because you got hurt again. You will say it’s okay but it’s not. You will smile but then I know you have cried. I did it again, as Britney’s song goes. And oops is all I can say. Sorry.
It hurts me that it’s like this. That it ended this way. I’m just stupid really when it comes to this. It was a dream. What we had was really like just a dream. Everything virtual. The kisses, the hugs, the hanging outs, the dates. Everything. All we had were moments. Moments up high. Moments I will always treasure.
There’s always an ending to a fairytale. Ours was a fairytale gone wrong. The prince didn’t find the princess. And the princess was never woken by the prince with a kiss.
I will not say this time, it’s my fault. Yes, last year was mine. But this time, no. I tried. I didn’t just disappear. I just loosened my grip. Because I dunno if I was holding on to something that is worth holding on. I guess I’ll never know. You were the best friend any one can ask for online. Online because that’s what we had always been.
4 days and 3night was it? All the reality that we had were those nights. I may always be the villain in your own love story. But my dear, my feelings were real. Sadly though, this is said in past tense…..
We will both find what we’re looking for. Someday. Somebody will show us the real beauty of love and sacrifice.
I feel so grouchy when I’m missing someone. Tch. Grr. And now I do. Gaahhhh…
Then irritated with the bros for dishes duty. No. I. Will. Not. You guys made me go out and buy water. I cooked yesterday so I skipped my turn. I went grocery shopping with Dad. Tch. I know lame and shallow. But. But. I am grouchy now. So there.
Grouchiness. Grouchiness.
My Nails: on emo-mode.
I painted my nails light blue (hmm doesn’t show there it’s blue) and put tiny hearts and glitters.. Hahahaha. LOL. I used to do this often back in college. My aunt always sends me some cute nail polish from Japan whenever they send gifts.
As you can see I don’t have the prettiest fingers ever. Ugh. It’s punggok. Haha. It’s not the daintiest and the girliest fingers a girl can have. haha. But you’d love to hold it. Woot! LOL. Hahahaha.
As I told Karrie, even my hand is on emo mode. Waahh.. hahaha.. hearts hearts. Red hearts. Pink hearts. Waaahhh.
Right Hand
Left hand
Ahihi. Wasn’t able to list down yesterday’s smiley points Hmmm… I can’t remember….
1. Went to another interview yesterday..seems well..hopes well.. The interviewer was nice anyhow. They will be done.
2. Xylon and I went home together after that and had KFC on the bus. weeee. Major smiley point yesterday, Famous bowl and mini bucket of fries. <3 lalalalaoveee
3. Rhino is just too cute! And his pic made it to Explore today weee…
4. UUbbberrr long phone call to Karrie last night.
5. Hmm.. today.. Carmi and Ez went here to play with Puppies weee.. pretty shots too!
6. LOLing at funny Flickr shots and comments with Karrie. Really LMAO. Laughing with tears of joy now. hahaha. She is mean. LOL.
7. And I dunno what else. But it wasn’t really that crappy today..it just came on later hahahaa. LOLZ. Whatevs.
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